spontaneous schedules

so supposedly i was going to lock myself up in my room to catch up on some homework, updates, whatnot... and then i found out this week is actually REALLY busy because of plans i totally forgot about. Well not Joanna's party, that was fun (: and then the JCC sleepover, then the softball tournament.

I think i'm going to end up finishing summer hw on the last day of break like last year. omgaaah.
I can't say i hate it though, break is still fun despite all the academic stuff..

Anyways
I have been continuously debating (for the longest time) about whether to cut my hair short or not.. and what color to dye it. Spotting a new look? I guess so... hopefully it'll turn out better than I expect (:

My room needs some cleaning. and a new look too...

yes!

I can start blogging again since the site works now.. kind of missed this place (:

august is already here, that means 3/4 more weeks of break. i need to start focusing! been trying to this whole summer, but i don't think my brain will ever be the same as before in 7th grade ):

anyways yesterday i had a piano competition,
and guess who won first place!?!?!?!??!
i honestly wasn't going to continue piano if I didn't place, and at first i thought i would end up fourth when my number was posted up but i just never knew. some motivation.

talking about motivation, can't wait to go up to PUC... everyday is an obstacle, but just 2 more days!! i need to get away from my house and sats and volunteer.

just realized i haven't seen some school people for the LONGEST time... i miss them ):

almost well

this site hasn't been working on my computer for a while, but i guess it does now

i'm glad that the sickness has gone! now that it is over i can continue enjoying summer (o:

mindless

today, i woke up in the morning with my mom crying on my shoulder.

sorry eunbee,
sorry that i can't support you, sorry that i'm making it so hard on you, that you can't do what you want to do. if it gets any harder after high school let's just move back to korea okay?

no matter how hard i tried to stay strong i couldn't help but share the same emotions as her, i started crying. i wanted to show her how thankful i was to have this love and support,
yet I still cried.

I also cried on saturday at the damian and katrina's moms funeral. i have never cried so much in a single weekend.
and now my throat hurts so much.

today was such a mindless day. especially since I stayed up the whole night for the SALT gym event. my sleeping schedule is totally reversed. I went to school mindless and came home the same way.





I need to wake up.

URG

I HATE SCHOOL


SO MUCH

crazy

what am I going through?
Is it just a hallucination?
I actually did happen to come across that actually... ashley was at my house and we were about to go and exercise. but then i forgot my phone but then i saw long brown hair swishing and going in to the wall. I freaked out and so.. ashley got freaked out too. I think i'm going crazy.

Riya did my nails for me today... everyday something is done for prom on saturday. and tomorrow is band-aid! wow what a great weekend (: i even have school off friday yyaayay


today was pretty spontaneous.
PRETTY spontaneous


shoutouts:
1) You probably don't know that I'm saying this to you, but I just really want to thank you for always being there for me. I know that I don't act like I appreciate you being there next to me, but like I said you always ask me about what's going on, offer to help me, and even do things late at night. Thanks.. I hope we can stay the best of friends (:

2) I love you guys. Today I kind of got to realize how goofy we are although everyone in oxford sees us so differently. Sisters forever<3

3) Maybe it wasn't the right time. maybe it was... but whatever you did, it was your choice.

4) Sometimes it pisses me off so much that you're so two sided. I wish you can grow up and stop being a little kid..

misunderstandings

sometimes,
people are so stubborn.
they can't grow out of their comfort zone,
they can't admit that they have faults too
and instead, because they don't want their guard down
they take advantage of whatever authority they have
and use it unreasonably against the other person
just so that they can avoid the situation.



my dad is yelling at my brother just because he seemed a little mad.
is it wrong to express what you disapprove of?
not even a little bit?
Is he so stubborn that he only thinks of what he's done
and not at all of my brother..? Is this how he thinks?
The same process repeats over and over again...
the chastising continues but in reality it doesn't work
cause people are so stubborn like that