today, i woke up in the morning with my mom crying on my shoulder.
sorry eunbee,
sorry that i can't support you, sorry that i'm making it so hard on you, that you can't do what you want to do. if it gets any harder after high school let's just move back to korea okay?
no matter how hard i tried to stay strong i couldn't help but share the same emotions as her, i started crying. i wanted to show her how thankful i was to have this love and support,
yet I still cried.
I also cried on saturday at the damian and katrina's moms funeral. i have never cried so much in a single weekend.
and now my throat hurts so much.
today was such a mindless day. especially since I stayed up the whole night for the SALT gym event. my sleeping schedule is totally reversed. I went to school mindless and came home the same way.
I need to wake up.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Monday, May 25, 2009
Thursday, May 21, 2009
crazy
what am I going through?
Is it just a hallucination?
I actually did happen to come across that actually... ashley was at my house and we were about to go and exercise. but then i forgot my phone but then i saw long brown hair swishing and going in to the wall. I freaked out and so.. ashley got freaked out too. I think i'm going crazy.
Riya did my nails for me today... everyday something is done for prom on saturday. and tomorrow is band-aid! wow what a great weekend (: i even have school off friday yyaayay
today was pretty spontaneous.
PRETTY spontaneous
shoutouts:
1) You probably don't know that I'm saying this to you, but I just really want to thank you for always being there for me. I know that I don't act like I appreciate you being there next to me, but like I said you always ask me about what's going on, offer to help me, and even do things late at night. Thanks.. I hope we can stay the best of friends (:
2) I love you guys. Today I kind of got to realize how goofy we are although everyone in oxford sees us so differently. Sisters forever<3
3) Maybe it wasn't the right time. maybe it was... but whatever you did, it was your choice.
4) Sometimes it pisses me off so much that you're so two sided. I wish you can grow up and stop being a little kid..
Is it just a hallucination?
I actually did happen to come across that actually... ashley was at my house and we were about to go and exercise. but then i forgot my phone but then i saw long brown hair swishing and going in to the wall. I freaked out and so.. ashley got freaked out too. I think i'm going crazy.
Riya did my nails for me today... everyday something is done for prom on saturday. and tomorrow is band-aid! wow what a great weekend (: i even have school off friday yyaayay
today was pretty spontaneous.
PRETTY spontaneous
shoutouts:
1) You probably don't know that I'm saying this to you, but I just really want to thank you for always being there for me. I know that I don't act like I appreciate you being there next to me, but like I said you always ask me about what's going on, offer to help me, and even do things late at night. Thanks.. I hope we can stay the best of friends (:
2) I love you guys. Today I kind of got to realize how goofy we are although everyone in oxford sees us so differently. Sisters forever<3
3) Maybe it wasn't the right time. maybe it was... but whatever you did, it was your choice.
4) Sometimes it pisses me off so much that you're so two sided. I wish you can grow up and stop being a little kid..
Sunday, May 10, 2009
misunderstandings
sometimes,
people are so stubborn.
they can't grow out of their comfort zone,
they can't admit that they have faults too
and instead, because they don't want their guard down
they take advantage of whatever authority they have
and use it unreasonably against the other person
just so that they can avoid the situation.
my dad is yelling at my brother just because he seemed a little mad.
is it wrong to express what you disapprove of?
not even a little bit?
Is he so stubborn that he only thinks of what he's done
and not at all of my brother..? Is this how he thinks?
The same process repeats over and over again...
the chastising continues but in reality it doesn't work
cause people are so stubborn like that
people are so stubborn.
they can't grow out of their comfort zone,
they can't admit that they have faults too
and instead, because they don't want their guard down
they take advantage of whatever authority they have
and use it unreasonably against the other person
just so that they can avoid the situation.
my dad is yelling at my brother just because he seemed a little mad.
is it wrong to express what you disapprove of?
not even a little bit?
Is he so stubborn that he only thinks of what he's done
and not at all of my brother..? Is this how he thinks?
The same process repeats over and over again...
the chastising continues but in reality it doesn't work
cause people are so stubborn like that
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
new territories
so Heffy, Riya, Ashley and I (HERA) went to Troy after school to see Greg and Allen. And some other boys that me and Heffy were supposedly meeting.. for a special reason (: hehe. I thought it was pretty interesting to go to another school... I always thought people that came to visit our school was a little weird but now I experienced myself as a visitor I feel why it's so different
but not Oxford. haha
Anyways today was 31 cents for a scoop at baskin robins! the line wasn't that long cause we were there early but then I would have bought alot more.. i should have brought money. Haha Greg bought me my ice cream so i was happy that I could actually eat it. I found out my favorite flavor! Jamoca almond fudge. mmm.
Ugh, i'm so screwed for ap testing... SCREW EURO. I HATE HISTORY OMGGGGGG I SERIOUSLY DO NOT UNDERSTAND PEOPLE THAT GET HISTORY.... ): Seriously I kind of wished I didn't pay the money so that I could spend it on something else, cause that would actually be more useful that just failing the test and not getting anything. I'm supposed to be writing an frq right now but then since I don't know anything i'm just venting out here. I hate school wow.
Luckily I raised my 31% in math to a B, but then I actually want to raise it up to an A! I don't know if that's going to be possible, but i'm really going to try hard for the last semester. I'm pretty sure i'm going to regret it later.. so better safe than sorry (:
OKAY, back to work.
but not Oxford. haha
Anyways today was 31 cents for a scoop at baskin robins! the line wasn't that long cause we were there early but then I would have bought alot more.. i should have brought money. Haha Greg bought me my ice cream so i was happy that I could actually eat it. I found out my favorite flavor! Jamoca almond fudge. mmm.
Ugh, i'm so screwed for ap testing... SCREW EURO. I HATE HISTORY OMGGGGGG I SERIOUSLY DO NOT UNDERSTAND PEOPLE THAT GET HISTORY.... ): Seriously I kind of wished I didn't pay the money so that I could spend it on something else, cause that would actually be more useful that just failing the test and not getting anything. I'm supposed to be writing an frq right now but then since I don't know anything i'm just venting out here. I hate school wow.
Luckily I raised my 31% in math to a B, but then I actually want to raise it up to an A! I don't know if that's going to be possible, but i'm really going to try hard for the last semester. I'm pretty sure i'm going to regret it later.. so better safe than sorry (:
OKAY, back to work.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Anxious
Today at 7pm my parents and I went to costco and some other markets to buy food and other stuff for saturday. Two hours later I finally came home. Woww I never knew shopping for beach stuff would be this tiring.
Anyways I was having sort of a dilemma thing cause I didn't know what hot dogs were made of, so we just bought two types lol.
I'm so anxious! There's still stuff I need to get from people and other things I need to buy, so I feel rushed and pressured for some reason. Maybe it's because I know that the next day is my piano contemporary competition, but I just hope it's a whole bunch of kids that enter (:
I heard the weather goes down tomorrow... hopefully it doesn't get too cold this weekend.
Turning 16 tomorow....
(:
Anyways I was having sort of a dilemma thing cause I didn't know what hot dogs were made of, so we just bought two types lol.
I'm so anxious! There's still stuff I need to get from people and other things I need to buy, so I feel rushed and pressured for some reason. Maybe it's because I know that the next day is my piano contemporary competition, but I just hope it's a whole bunch of kids that enter (:
I heard the weather goes down tomorrow... hopefully it doesn't get too cold this weekend.
Turning 16 tomorow....
(:
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Long time no see
So I went to church today not expecting anything...
I was supposed to go to UC Merced today with my family but there were some complications so we didn't end up going. But that was TOTALLY FINE cause Paul brought IRENE to church!
I MISSED HER SOOO MUCH!!!
and i was so glad i got to see her, since we got to update each other on stuff. paul told me she would come visit me sometime but i was hoping next week cause then she could come to the beach with me... but it was still nice seeing her (: too bad she couldn't come to the getty with me...
But the getty. wow it was my second time but it was still amazing,, somewhat lol. it was actually pretty tiring and i was so ready to take alot of pictures but then michelle and jenna were tired so we didnt take too much. And wow, the in-n-out there is so pretty! it's like the best one i've seen. we were near ucla area.. actually where the dorms were so it was my first time there (=
And then after kirin took us to this pizookie place called... err i forgot but it was soooo good!
like you can pick two types of cookies that you want and then you choose what type of ice cream you want.. so it's super good. and its super cheap too! like the line was all the way outside so i guess its pretty popular there.
oh man, i'm going to miss spring break so much.
I was supposed to go to UC Merced today with my family but there were some complications so we didn't end up going. But that was TOTALLY FINE cause Paul brought IRENE to church!
I MISSED HER SOOO MUCH!!!
and i was so glad i got to see her, since we got to update each other on stuff. paul told me she would come visit me sometime but i was hoping next week cause then she could come to the beach with me... but it was still nice seeing her (: too bad she couldn't come to the getty with me...
But the getty. wow it was my second time but it was still amazing,, somewhat lol. it was actually pretty tiring and i was so ready to take alot of pictures but then michelle and jenna were tired so we didnt take too much. And wow, the in-n-out there is so pretty! it's like the best one i've seen. we were near ucla area.. actually where the dorms were so it was my first time there (=
And then after kirin took us to this pizookie place called... err i forgot but it was soooo good!
like you can pick two types of cookies that you want and then you choose what type of ice cream you want.. so it's super good. and its super cheap too! like the line was all the way outside so i guess its pretty popular there.
oh man, i'm going to miss spring break so much.
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