almost well

this site hasn't been working on my computer for a while, but i guess it does now

i'm glad that the sickness has gone! now that it is over i can continue enjoying summer (o:

mindless

today, i woke up in the morning with my mom crying on my shoulder.

sorry eunbee,
sorry that i can't support you, sorry that i'm making it so hard on you, that you can't do what you want to do. if it gets any harder after high school let's just move back to korea okay?

no matter how hard i tried to stay strong i couldn't help but share the same emotions as her, i started crying. i wanted to show her how thankful i was to have this love and support,
yet I still cried.

I also cried on saturday at the damian and katrina's moms funeral. i have never cried so much in a single weekend.
and now my throat hurts so much.

today was such a mindless day. especially since I stayed up the whole night for the SALT gym event. my sleeping schedule is totally reversed. I went to school mindless and came home the same way.





I need to wake up.

URG

I HATE SCHOOL


SO MUCH

crazy

what am I going through?
Is it just a hallucination?
I actually did happen to come across that actually... ashley was at my house and we were about to go and exercise. but then i forgot my phone but then i saw long brown hair swishing and going in to the wall. I freaked out and so.. ashley got freaked out too. I think i'm going crazy.

Riya did my nails for me today... everyday something is done for prom on saturday. and tomorrow is band-aid! wow what a great weekend (: i even have school off friday yyaayay


today was pretty spontaneous.
PRETTY spontaneous


shoutouts:
1) You probably don't know that I'm saying this to you, but I just really want to thank you for always being there for me. I know that I don't act like I appreciate you being there next to me, but like I said you always ask me about what's going on, offer to help me, and even do things late at night. Thanks.. I hope we can stay the best of friends (:

2) I love you guys. Today I kind of got to realize how goofy we are although everyone in oxford sees us so differently. Sisters forever<3

3) Maybe it wasn't the right time. maybe it was... but whatever you did, it was your choice.

4) Sometimes it pisses me off so much that you're so two sided. I wish you can grow up and stop being a little kid..

misunderstandings

sometimes,
people are so stubborn.
they can't grow out of their comfort zone,
they can't admit that they have faults too
and instead, because they don't want their guard down
they take advantage of whatever authority they have
and use it unreasonably against the other person
just so that they can avoid the situation.



my dad is yelling at my brother just because he seemed a little mad.
is it wrong to express what you disapprove of?
not even a little bit?
Is he so stubborn that he only thinks of what he's done
and not at all of my brother..? Is this how he thinks?
The same process repeats over and over again...
the chastising continues but in reality it doesn't work
cause people are so stubborn like that

new territories

so Heffy, Riya, Ashley and I (HERA) went to Troy after school to see Greg and Allen. And some other boys that me and Heffy were supposedly meeting.. for a special reason (: hehe. I thought it was pretty interesting to go to another school... I always thought people that came to visit our school was a little weird but now I experienced myself as a visitor I feel why it's so different

but not Oxford. haha

Anyways today was 31 cents for a scoop at baskin robins! the line wasn't that long cause we were there early but then I would have bought alot more.. i should have brought money. Haha Greg bought me my ice cream so i was happy that I could actually eat it. I found out my favorite flavor! Jamoca almond fudge. mmm.

Ugh, i'm so screwed for ap testing... SCREW EURO. I HATE HISTORY OMGGGGGG I SERIOUSLY DO NOT UNDERSTAND PEOPLE THAT GET HISTORY.... ): Seriously I kind of wished I didn't pay the money so that I could spend it on something else, cause that would actually be more useful that just failing the test and not getting anything. I'm supposed to be writing an frq right now but then since I don't know anything i'm just venting out here. I hate school wow.
Luckily I raised my 31% in math to a B, but then I actually want to raise it up to an A! I don't know if that's going to be possible, but i'm really going to try hard for the last semester. I'm pretty sure i'm going to regret it later.. so better safe than sorry (:


OKAY, back to work.

Anxious

Today at 7pm my parents and I went to costco and some other markets to buy food and other stuff for saturday. Two hours later I finally came home. Woww I never knew shopping for beach stuff would be this tiring.

Anyways I was having sort of a dilemma thing cause I didn't know what hot dogs were made of, so we just bought two types lol.

I'm so anxious! There's still stuff I need to get from people and other things I need to buy, so I feel rushed and pressured for some reason. Maybe it's because I know that the next day is my piano contemporary competition, but I just hope it's a whole bunch of kids that enter (:

I heard the weather goes down tomorrow... hopefully it doesn't get too cold this weekend.



Turning 16 tomorow....
(: