rushed

i don't know what exactly it is,
but even when i have the littlest of tasks to do i always feel really rushed.
and then so i become really stressed. and too tight.
it's bugging me so much! like that's how i feel right now.

maybe it's because i'm anticipated for this weekend's retreat (= i thought being a leader was going to be fun, but its a lot more stressful than i thought cause you have to make sure the lesson plan is learned. Maybe i'm stressing out too much about it, idk. AGGGH i wish i never feel like this ): UGH

and ever since last sunday, i've had a HUGE craving to go shopping. i've been trying to go but i was too busy, and tomorrow i have to babysit and then friday i have to leave for retreat. darn, i guess i can't go this week ):

i guess this week's load was pretty easy though cause of the CAHSEE exam (= i love finishing the test and getting like an extra hour of sleep for each section. haha maan today's egyptian slapping game during chem was pretty intense. LOL

i think if i get over tomorrow then i'll feel fine (: I've come to realize how i really don't care about school anymore. it's kind of good i guess?