FUN

LONG entry...

o52910: PROM

So proud of JCC :) Througout this year we've been spending so much time and now that it finally came it was kinda sad.. but prom was very successful!

Anyways I had to go to church service SUPER early in the morning cause my mom was iffy about me missing church -__- seriously there were like 10 adults there so boring.. but since the youth pastor was speaking it was bearable. then after we went straight home and then riya and hannah came over. I swear.. I love extensions <3

and oh i REALLY REALLY liked my makeup & hair.. MAJOR PROPS TO RIYA.. seriously what can I do without this girll

anywaays went to imagix and took pictures.. the usual. but THE BOAT. haha endless dreams! I remember we were all bummed out we couldn't get eternity? I think that was what it was called... but this boat was super nice too I think we underappreciated it a little :) anyways setting up 2 hours before prom was kind of a hassle cause tables got mixed up but at the end everything got set up in time.

The security was really uptight! when it was about to start all non jcc members had to leave the boat and i left too cause michael was out but i was jcc and i couldn't even go in -_- had to wait in the line for like 45 mins lool. but maan the boat was amazinn :o) except it moved ALOT faster than I expected so i actually felt it rocking back and forth.. kind of made me sick but who cares? its on a boat..

went to dennys after and i said i wouldn't eat but i did -_- seriously i've been eating so muchh but haha food is too good!

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i think this is one of the most memorable dances i went to :)

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o53o1o: FAMILY VACATION

i came back home around like 130 and got all settled for bed around 2. we were going to leave at 5 so i only had like 3 hours to sleep...well when i woke up it was around 630 and we were just about to leave. oh my gosh i rushed like no other lol. anywayys it took like 3 hours to go to solvang.. me and my brother just knocked out. my dad bought a whole bunch of food.. I didn't really get why cause we were gonna eat there anyways but . never too bad to have food :)

it was SUPER hot.. i checked the weather after prom and it was gonna be like 90 degrees there.. I don't know why I wore long pants lol but I was prepared :) brought like 2 sets of clothes lol. well there wasn't really much to do there except sightsee and eat so we went to santa barbara which was pretty close from there and we went to go see the mission. except we were super lucky cause they happened to have a children's festival or something so it made our experience more fun :) there were like chalk art and like people singing and food and whatnot and a WHOLE bunch of people. i wouldn't mind going there again..

then for dinner we went to this chinese vegetarian restaurant. we were having the hardest time finding the place because we went there WAY before but when we got there it wasn't at the same place.. i think it was a chain. so we were debating if we should go or not and we ended up going.. lol. i think we ordered the wrong food -_- we were quite disappointed but oh well :)

i'm really thankful that we all got to go on this trip.. i think it really helped us to bond.. i mean we always had our family moments and stuff but most of the time we would always be doing our own things.. this time we actually moved together, ate together, talked with each other.. all things that a close family would do hehe. i love my KOH family<3

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o53110: DATE WITH MOMMA

went out with her at like 2pm and went to anaheim forever 21 to go shopping.. right when i got in they asked me if i wanted to enter in this raffle for a 100 dollar gift card so i was like O_O i think i had my hopes too high.. i really really really wanted to win hahah cause i already planned on buying my mom clothes but if i had that then i could buy her more. we freaking waited 2 hours for it and we didn't even get it -_- dammit i should have like kept on writing my name lol. anyyways went to like a whole bunch of other stores after.. it was really good exercise baahhah. we're so determined >:) anyyways my mom told me she's going to chicago in june for a business trip and SHE DIDN'T EVEN TELL ME... she told me from now on she's going on a business trip every month and for july she might go back to missouri again and asked me if i wanted to tag along with her so i was like most def! if i do get to go i'd be kinda excited :)

i bought some clothes for her and for myself so i'm a happy shopper hahah

i think this is like one of the best weekends i've ever had yaaay :o)

long day

R.I.P. uncle ,

May 17th 2010

♥

woke up at 5am to hear my uncle passed away. i guess the time finally came. still in shock.. but what happens happens... went to hospital and saw his body for the last time. i don't know. he was so cold and white.. can't really get that image out of my head. been popping up randomly this whole day but I guess throughout the week my family, his family, and I will cope with it and just wish him the best.

on a brighter note, I got my shoes for prom today! went to cerritos mall with ashley and I was so scared I wouldn't be able to find shoes but we actually found them like less than an hour. All I need now are flowers and dress. Found the dress at ebay LOL and trying to contact the seller to send it early but she's being pretty shady -_- but i still trust her. she better... omg

i love having no hw :) finally have time for myself I can just relaxx this is how I always wanted weekdays to be.. time to shop around nap laugh have fun whatever

tomorrow is officially show week! another tiring week... but it'll get my mind off the whole situation. ahhh can't wait till prom! very excited hehe

p.s.

very thankful for the ones who've always been there for me

gone

dear uncle.

i wanted to keep you anonymous.. i did in all my other posts because I had high hopes about you reviving. Well dad (your brother) just told me that they're going to take you off the breathing machine this saturday.. he even told me the time too. approximately 2pm.

I really don't know what to say, and I can't stop crying ever since I heard the news.

I didn't expect to hear this. I only meant to tell my parents that I got into regionals for bach festival and that this sunday I would have to play in a recital. But they told me to keep this weekend open because of you. I really really can't believe this.... when i visited you at the hospital the last two times you were slowly moving and making progress. I really thought you were going to live. Even when the doctors told my dad that even if you live, you might have mental problems because of so much damage... that didn't bother me at all because when you opened your eyes a millimeter that one time I had hope. I prayed to God for a sign like that, and the fact that it came true instantly gave me so much assurance.

I thought you could make it. Is it the money that's stopping you from living? Is it just because you've given up yourself? Why do you have to do this right now... can't you see the people supporting you? While I was at the hospital there were so many people coming to see you that the doctors had to limit the amount of visitors coming in your room. Pastors, old friends, family.. everyone. There's so many people that are waiting for you to revive again but right now I think they have lost all hope. As for me, I'm really hoping that what my dad had said isn't true. I really hope they don't take you off the machine. You depend on it now, but you're going to recover with it... you can still live. I know. I wish I could know.

I miss you already. I'm sorry I've never visited you as often when you were standing and well-off. I remember the last time we ever had bonding time was about 3 years ago. So ironic how we came to California so that my dad can be with you but we barely get to see each other. I really hope that you pass away peacefully. But more than anything, I hope that you can assure your daughter and son... my cousins... that you'll always be with them no matter what.

I'm really hoping that I wouldn't have to go to a funeral this weekend. I really really hope I don't have to.

Koh sae jun, please show me that you'll be okay even after your last breath.

i love you.

obstacles

3 more days.

that's all i can think of.

just 3 more....

actually 4, including prom fashion show. that'll be a hassle but i think it'll be more fun :) i mean i'm considering doing this pretty much the rest of my life.. right.? anywaays i dont' know why i feel so relaxed for apbio. I should be studying.. haha i should be. probably it's just because it's mothers day / weekend, hopefully i don't go o_o tmrw lol. AHH just three more days!

decided that i'm going to start working out :) i don't think really to lose weight, i'm happy with my current "status" lol but i just wanna get FIT. these days i'm just walking around and i get tired.. that's pretty pathetic. after all aps are over imma start!

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I asked God if you can open your eyes before I leave. You actually did... your consciousness was so out of sight but I felt secure inside. I know you can make it... you move around, so actively and resistantly and I know you have life inside. Please.. please wake up. I'll go visit you as much as I can.. pray for you, sing for you, talk with you.. whatever it takes. I want to see you standing again, with your son and daughter. Do me a favor, please. Please wake up.

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busy saturday

1. SAT IIs in the morning. I don't think I did my best if I studied a little more i would have probably done alot better. Oh well, just hoping for the best now (=

2. work today was a little .. stressful. It was supposed to be activity week but we didn't have much planned so it was hard keeping them still for an hour. It went pretty fast though I guess!

3. HOLLYWOOD BOWL. omgaaaah. my second time going there but first for korean fest <3 hehehhe finally got to see doojoon and taecyeon! not from a screen lol. i realized they have pretty nice body structure LOL. and they look the SAME from tv which means they're super good looking (= I was so close to them too. Nicole was saying how her dream was to be on stage and this other old guy was saying how long time ago the beatles and all these famous bands/ singers performed there and they're so honored to stand at the same place.... anyways took lots of pictures omg fangirls were screaming everywhere and rushing to the front of the stage when they shouted 2! LOL. security was getting super irritated but good thing i had a good spot (=

okaaay pretty much screwed for hw today. but its okay it was a funn weekend (: can't wait for aps... -____-