prayers

didn't know prayers would be granted so fast...

thank you (:

revisiting

i had the whole break to write here and I didn't ): might as well before the near year begins...

Break is great (= not the best one but definitely giving me the time i needed to think things over... about what i need to continue and let go. this dilemma has been especially hitting me hard today, but hopefully if i want it bad enough then I'll somehow keep it for long.

and i also realized time is going by SUPER fast -___- the days go by somewhat at a normal speed but when you look back a week's already been over. you wish that just this day would pass by and sooner than you know it, that day's over. so i've learned that it's better not to look at days from a grand scheme (the whole year), but rather by each day and accomplish something so that I can get somewhere rather than wait later until it eventually happens by itself..

hahaha i'm in such a reflective mood. ANYWAYS i'm excited for the lock-in to countdown for new years (= last year countdowning was a total bust so hopefully it'll be fun this year... eating as much as i want without having to worry! muhahah.

oh and before i forget, i'll start writing my new years resolutions...

- Continue
- Stable
- Settled

vague, but makes sense to me... i'll have more (:

11:11

i need to write here more often...

today was so different from what i expected. i had only 5 hours of sleep and woke up at 5:50 instead of sleeping until noon... spending the afternoon at riverside than around cerritos area. it was fun though. just realized that public schools are so much more different than private schools. haha i felt so awkward being with all those christian private schools.. i'm glad i belong in the other community (:

still deciding what to wish for today... there's so many things i could ask for though. haha it's so stupid how i'm thinking about this, but i guess it just sets up priorities and goals for me right now.

hopefully, i can get some sleep today.

yearning

i miss something that I do not have.
many things actually...

ultimately

stressed.

so much CRAP x123572460t984789t

before piano my mom was talking with my aunt
she was crying because there's some family crap going on with my cousin's marriage

after piano i got in the car and my mom was crying
from a phone conversation with church people
apparently they aren't doing too well either...

and i got a very unexpected grade on my Anatomy test..
so i have to go retake it ):
and apush! ugggh pisses me off...



the top 10 happiest countries in the world..

Denmark, Finland and the Netherlands rated at the top of the list, ranking first, second and third, respectively. Outside Europe, New Zealand and Canada landed at Nos. 8 and 6, respectively. The U.S. did not crack the top 10. Switzerland placed seventh and Belgium placed tenth.


see the U.S. isn't in there. i think i belong somewhere else

):
UGGGGGGH

On top of everything

when has life become so busy?
at times it seems so relaxing... actually not really. i think it's just the whole junior phase.
right when i came home from piano i made a list of everything i need to do to stay ahead of things so hopefully i won't have to deal with late study nights and whatnot...

anyways labor day was goood (: i woke up pretty early but then i went to meena's house to chill. then we decided to go to the mall... brea actually had longer hours today! and a whole bunch of people... gahhh pissed me off when there were so many people at forever D:< but yeah. bought my moms birthday present! and then right after i got home i brought out my piano books and went to lesson. i was pretty much out the whole daay

but seriously. i feel accomplished getting myself organized because i can already feel the hassle coming. i want this year to end already!

dear _________,

i'm sorry to startle you, to disturb you..
it was hard for me to say.
the whole time i had it in my mind
yet when it was time all i could do was stutter...
i shouldn't have said it that way.
i'm really really sorry to surprise you with such a thing
i knew you would understand, and i should have said it alot simpler.
i hope this doesn't affect you at all because it will continue on
i'm glad it will...



i cannot stop tears from coming out

junior year starters

so my schedule:

1. apush
2. anatomy
3. show
4. precalc
5. bio
6. aplit

not bad! (:
i actually like my schedule except for anatomy. first class on tuesdays thursdays ): but besides that i really like it. hopefully junior year won't be as bad as i think...

plus
i went shopping today! for the first time in summer i think... and i actually bought a whole outfit-worth of clothes. i am truly satisfied.

now all i can hope for a perfect ending to my summer is a fun weekend. and that won't be impossible. play play playy


--update--
my brother is eating a FULL COURSE meal right now.. so late at night but it's so tempting! ugh. damn my diet. i guess it will be worth it later on right? i need some self-control haha

weaknesses

before i start, i've been noticing my frequent updates in my blog. well i better write as much as i can before i'm too busy to do this again.

(:

so today was another 4 hours of volunteer at long beach hospital.
actually today was really fun, i worked with michelle today at her department.
...basically we played and talked with kids that just woke up from anasthesia from surgery (idknow if thats how you spell it); some cases were pretty stupid but others, wow i'm just so fortunate that i'm healthy. I knew that health was something i should treasure but that thought was pretty dormant until now.

Anyways,
the lady there gave us a tour around the department... basically surgery rooms. It was, obviously, my first time in there...
for some reason it was alot less scarier i thought. Surgery and blood is one thing that I DEFINITELY cannot stand, but when i was there it didn't seem too bad. until i saw blood on the operation bed.

i felt my consciousness level going down.. i wasn't feeling the same after that. Writing an essay took me forever :/ my brain is still throbbing..

and i just came to realize, if i plan to work in the medical field how am i supposed to overcome this? A needle that goes through my arm scares me. Something in my body scares me. The talk of blood scares me. What else am i scared of...

in spite of all this, I'm glad that i didn't have to file papers and look at explicit pictures (:

now hopefully i can be conscious enough to finish up some summer hw..

finally!

i survived wednesday.

wednesday =
vocab cumulative tests
sat practice test
piano lesson.

i have finished everything. what a relief...
all i have to worry about now is summer homework.

focus focus focus!

2 more weeks

of summer.

i
am
going
to
die.


anyways,
new haircut! (:
kind of short, but i like it since i was aiming for a new style anyways.
i wished she cut my bangs a little differently though.
i will dye my hair soon too

a new look for a new school year? guess so

spontaneous schedules

so supposedly i was going to lock myself up in my room to catch up on some homework, updates, whatnot... and then i found out this week is actually REALLY busy because of plans i totally forgot about. Well not Joanna's party, that was fun (: and then the JCC sleepover, then the softball tournament.

I think i'm going to end up finishing summer hw on the last day of break like last year. omgaaah.
I can't say i hate it though, break is still fun despite all the academic stuff..

Anyways
I have been continuously debating (for the longest time) about whether to cut my hair short or not.. and what color to dye it. Spotting a new look? I guess so... hopefully it'll turn out better than I expect (:

My room needs some cleaning. and a new look too...

yes!

I can start blogging again since the site works now.. kind of missed this place (:

august is already here, that means 3/4 more weeks of break. i need to start focusing! been trying to this whole summer, but i don't think my brain will ever be the same as before in 7th grade ):

anyways yesterday i had a piano competition,
and guess who won first place!?!?!?!??!
i honestly wasn't going to continue piano if I didn't place, and at first i thought i would end up fourth when my number was posted up but i just never knew. some motivation.

talking about motivation, can't wait to go up to PUC... everyday is an obstacle, but just 2 more days!! i need to get away from my house and sats and volunteer.

just realized i haven't seen some school people for the LONGEST time... i miss them ):

almost well

this site hasn't been working on my computer for a while, but i guess it does now

i'm glad that the sickness has gone! now that it is over i can continue enjoying summer (o:

mindless

today, i woke up in the morning with my mom crying on my shoulder.

sorry eunbee,
sorry that i can't support you, sorry that i'm making it so hard on you, that you can't do what you want to do. if it gets any harder after high school let's just move back to korea okay?

no matter how hard i tried to stay strong i couldn't help but share the same emotions as her, i started crying. i wanted to show her how thankful i was to have this love and support,
yet I still cried.

I also cried on saturday at the damian and katrina's moms funeral. i have never cried so much in a single weekend.
and now my throat hurts so much.

today was such a mindless day. especially since I stayed up the whole night for the SALT gym event. my sleeping schedule is totally reversed. I went to school mindless and came home the same way.





I need to wake up.

URG

I HATE SCHOOL


SO MUCH

crazy

what am I going through?
Is it just a hallucination?
I actually did happen to come across that actually... ashley was at my house and we were about to go and exercise. but then i forgot my phone but then i saw long brown hair swishing and going in to the wall. I freaked out and so.. ashley got freaked out too. I think i'm going crazy.

Riya did my nails for me today... everyday something is done for prom on saturday. and tomorrow is band-aid! wow what a great weekend (: i even have school off friday yyaayay


today was pretty spontaneous.
PRETTY spontaneous


shoutouts:
1) You probably don't know that I'm saying this to you, but I just really want to thank you for always being there for me. I know that I don't act like I appreciate you being there next to me, but like I said you always ask me about what's going on, offer to help me, and even do things late at night. Thanks.. I hope we can stay the best of friends (:

2) I love you guys. Today I kind of got to realize how goofy we are although everyone in oxford sees us so differently. Sisters forever<3

3) Maybe it wasn't the right time. maybe it was... but whatever you did, it was your choice.

4) Sometimes it pisses me off so much that you're so two sided. I wish you can grow up and stop being a little kid..

misunderstandings

sometimes,
people are so stubborn.
they can't grow out of their comfort zone,
they can't admit that they have faults too
and instead, because they don't want their guard down
they take advantage of whatever authority they have
and use it unreasonably against the other person
just so that they can avoid the situation.



my dad is yelling at my brother just because he seemed a little mad.
is it wrong to express what you disapprove of?
not even a little bit?
Is he so stubborn that he only thinks of what he's done
and not at all of my brother..? Is this how he thinks?
The same process repeats over and over again...
the chastising continues but in reality it doesn't work
cause people are so stubborn like that

new territories

so Heffy, Riya, Ashley and I (HERA) went to Troy after school to see Greg and Allen. And some other boys that me and Heffy were supposedly meeting.. for a special reason (: hehe. I thought it was pretty interesting to go to another school... I always thought people that came to visit our school was a little weird but now I experienced myself as a visitor I feel why it's so different

but not Oxford. haha

Anyways today was 31 cents for a scoop at baskin robins! the line wasn't that long cause we were there early but then I would have bought alot more.. i should have brought money. Haha Greg bought me my ice cream so i was happy that I could actually eat it. I found out my favorite flavor! Jamoca almond fudge. mmm.

Ugh, i'm so screwed for ap testing... SCREW EURO. I HATE HISTORY OMGGGGGG I SERIOUSLY DO NOT UNDERSTAND PEOPLE THAT GET HISTORY.... ): Seriously I kind of wished I didn't pay the money so that I could spend it on something else, cause that would actually be more useful that just failing the test and not getting anything. I'm supposed to be writing an frq right now but then since I don't know anything i'm just venting out here. I hate school wow.
Luckily I raised my 31% in math to a B, but then I actually want to raise it up to an A! I don't know if that's going to be possible, but i'm really going to try hard for the last semester. I'm pretty sure i'm going to regret it later.. so better safe than sorry (:


OKAY, back to work.

Anxious

Today at 7pm my parents and I went to costco and some other markets to buy food and other stuff for saturday. Two hours later I finally came home. Woww I never knew shopping for beach stuff would be this tiring.

Anyways I was having sort of a dilemma thing cause I didn't know what hot dogs were made of, so we just bought two types lol.

I'm so anxious! There's still stuff I need to get from people and other things I need to buy, so I feel rushed and pressured for some reason. Maybe it's because I know that the next day is my piano contemporary competition, but I just hope it's a whole bunch of kids that enter (:

I heard the weather goes down tomorrow... hopefully it doesn't get too cold this weekend.



Turning 16 tomorow....
(:

Long time no see

So I went to church today not expecting anything...

I was supposed to go to UC Merced today with my family but there were some complications so we didn't end up going. But that was TOTALLY FINE cause Paul brought IRENE to church!

I MISSED HER SOOO MUCH!!!
and i was so glad i got to see her, since we got to update each other on stuff. paul told me she would come visit me sometime but i was hoping next week cause then she could come to the beach with me... but it was still nice seeing her (: too bad she couldn't come to the getty with me...

But the getty. wow it was my second time but it was still amazing,, somewhat lol. it was actually pretty tiring and i was so ready to take alot of pictures but then michelle and jenna were tired so we didnt take too much. And wow, the in-n-out there is so pretty! it's like the best one i've seen. we were near ucla area.. actually where the dorms were so it was my first time there (=

And then after kirin took us to this pizookie place called... err i forgot but it was soooo good!
like you can pick two types of cookies that you want and then you choose what type of ice cream you want.. so it's super good. and its super cheap too! like the line was all the way outside so i guess its pretty popular there.

oh man, i'm going to miss spring break so much.

change of plans

so me heffy ashley jane and angie were supposed to hang out today at irvine spectrum. turns out that we didn't because something happened...
i was still glad that heffy and i got to still eat at SOUPLANTATION with richard (= i haven't seen him in the longest time! So it was a very productive and helpful brunch, with all his accident stories lol.

And ALSO turns out that chan had my camera the whole time i thought i lost it, and that was cause he needed it for our caesar extra credit thing. omg -______-

During the afternoon me and heffy really didn't have much to do so we went to t-shirt city so I could buy my parents' couple sweaters. hehe i'm excited how it's going to turn out (: i got the design and everything so all i need is just to have it printed.
And then we went to albertsons so we can get ingredients to make seven-layered cookies, and then yogurt time after to meet heffy's friends haha (:

AND UGH.
http://koreanmusicfestival.com/
i want to go so bad ): and see jonghyun hehehe

lost

I think i lost my camera!
):

well i'm pretty sure it's in my room somewhere, but i just don't know where it is... urrgh
heffy asked for it so she can borrow it but then i realized i couldn't find it. i don't even have my charger! So i'm totally clueless...

anyways.
i went to mall with my brother today. what a workout... we walked for so long we were pretty pooped after. and we didn't want to walk back to our house cause we would have to walk about 40 minutes from the bus stop.. so we just stopped at ctc and just waited until our mom picked us up.

me and my brother were at borders for a while.. i realized that my new inspiration is making cupcakes! the whole time i was looking at cupcake books and they were super pretty.. so i kind of wanted to make some too (: maybe sometime i will.

i haven't done any homework yet T_T i guess i'll have to leave tomorrow as a work day, urgh.




SHOUTOUTS:
1. hope you had fun at the beach today! i was pretty bummed you couldn't go to the mall with me, as you PROMISED! but whatever. help me find my camera kay?

2. i'm sorry you have to be grounded. and as i promised i will try to convince your mom. you know, use my techniques... haha. and also sorry for not being able to stop by your house to leave will a comment, sometime later hehe

3. you're kind of like my own little diary. always asking for updates and whatnot, if i'm bored.. what's going on. it kind of keeps me busy in a good way (:

4. snap out of it! there will be a time for that.. but just, not now.

5. when will you know!?!?!

Spring Break!

wow i haven't written on this for a long time,
but now that it's spring break i'm going to try to write here as much as i can (:

anyways spring break has finally started! i've been waiting for this since like foreveeerr and i have so many things in mind to do so i'm going to do everything. the only thing that sucks is the homework but nope! i'm not going to think about it at all.

today i had a pretty deep talk with josh, and it just makes me realize how important it is to have someone to vent things out to. I guess i come to realize that i always need someone or someplace or something to tell everything to or else... i don't think i would be myself lol.

anyways today was super hot. wow i guess it's time to go to the beach soon. which reminds me that i'm going in like two weeks i think (= yees! and i think i'm going to the mall three times this week. oh my. haha

my parents anniversary is coming up! me and my brother were thinking of getting them couple sweaters but they're really hard to find so i think we're just going to do something else. haha


okay, imma go sleep earrly

rushed

i don't know what exactly it is,
but even when i have the littlest of tasks to do i always feel really rushed.
and then so i become really stressed. and too tight.
it's bugging me so much! like that's how i feel right now.

maybe it's because i'm anticipated for this weekend's retreat (= i thought being a leader was going to be fun, but its a lot more stressful than i thought cause you have to make sure the lesson plan is learned. Maybe i'm stressing out too much about it, idk. AGGGH i wish i never feel like this ): UGH

and ever since last sunday, i've had a HUGE craving to go shopping. i've been trying to go but i was too busy, and tomorrow i have to babysit and then friday i have to leave for retreat. darn, i guess i can't go this week ):

i guess this week's load was pretty easy though cause of the CAHSEE exam (= i love finishing the test and getting like an extra hour of sleep for each section. haha maan today's egyptian slapping game during chem was pretty intense. LOL

i think if i get over tomorrow then i'll feel fine (: I've come to realize how i really don't care about school anymore. it's kind of good i guess?

show week & cm

so this week was pretty busy. actually march is pretty busy.

starting sunday, i had a SALT leadership training. Me and my partner Grace are basically counceling/leading juniors and seniors, but i'm younger. i'm pretty sure they won't listen to me, but at least I have Grace to help me (:
then tuesday through friday i had show week. i don't think it was as much of a burden as last time's show because i actually had alot done before! except preparing for cm. our show was ALOT better than the christmas one, but it's been seriously sucking ever since this year.. ):

and then today was cm! wow since it was my first time i was pretty nervous. i was there like 3 hours early before my performance time cause i knew that i was going to take forever on theory. good thing i came early though cause i had alot of time left, so i read the new seventeen magazine (: but then the guy that calls your name to take you to the performance room called me like an hour before my time and so i was like so shocked. cause i was planning to review before but then I was reading the seventeen magazine :/
so i was waiting and the boy before me took FOREVER! OMGGG. i had to sit down on this chair and this grandma and chinese man was talking to me. it was pretty weird but then i think the grandma likes me cause she was shocked it was my first year (:
oh wow. but then i kind of sucked at sight reading. i was doing good when i practiced and then BLEEEH. it was horrible ): and then i think i kind of did bad on two of my four pieces. darn it.

that's why i'm so nervous... for the results ): oh wow if i fail this i don't think i would ever want to do piano again. uggggh i really hope i pass..

&& i've been more motivated to keep my grades up ever since my parents found about zangle and have been nagging at me ever since. Since my allowance depends on my grades now, i really have to try or else i seriously can't go anywhere ):

next week is sadies! but i'm not going... cause i'm going to hang out with my JEMMS<333 haha. this is not nice to say but i hope it sucks so i don't regret that i didn't go (:


anyways, back to work! gotta earn my $$$$

busy busy busy

so now that February is almost over,
i'm about to have one of the most busiest months of the year.
): and a time of financial crisis too.
ugh

March 1st- Leadership training @ LA Central Church
March 2nd- Last piano lesson before CM ):
March 3rd-5th - Show week
March 6th-7th - Broadway Show
March 8th - CM Testing
March 14th - Sadies
March 20th-22nd - SALT Retreat
March 22nd - Bach Festival

HOLY CRAP. I just realized bach festival is like on the day i come back from salt retreat. shoooot.
This month is seriously hell. omgwwwwowww

hopefully sadies will be good (:

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I wish I was ALOT smarter with my words!!!!
):<

by that, i mean i wish I knew what to say at the right time.
gaaad i totally regret what i said yesterday.
i need some conscience to tell me what's right to say and what's wrong.


i'm sooooo stupid
ugh

changes

these days i wonder alot what, or who i would be if i was someone else.
or what i would do differently if i was able to start my life over again.

but besides that, life has been going pretty okay. one thing i'm super disappointed about is how i ended my semester ): ugh. but it actually motivated me to try harder so i hope that i'll actually do better and not disappoint myself.
It's raining alot too. Haha I actually started this blog cause it was raining and now it just reminds me of that time again (:

Okay so...

1) i'm excited: the two three day-weekends! UGGGGH YESSSS
2) i'm craving: shopping. like super badly
3) i'm missing: a few loved ones
4) i'm addicted: to freaking boys over flowers. gad those hotties

(:

1 Thing I DEFINITELY Need In My Life

... is my cellphone.
Life has seriously been miserable without it. It's like I just isolated myself from the world or something. Basically my poor phone has been dropped many times (they weren't all me!) and so the screen pretty much broke. Like the phone works but I can't see the screen so it's really hard for me to really do anything. AND! It only used to slide up and down but now it can open sideways. So pretty much it cracked in half too. Poor baby...
And so me, my mom and my brother decided to go to the cellphone store since my brother's broke a long time ago too and I really insisted that I get a new one asap. But we literally went all around garden grove and other cellphone stores near cypress, and they were all closed!

Today, I learned that all korean cellphone stores close on Sundays.

I guess I do learn something new everyday. I asked my mom if we can go to the mall or something but I don't think she wants to do it from a non-korean person. Wowwwwww I think I'm going to go crazy with another day.
And I keep on getting those text message noises but all I can reply is "Sorry I can't see what you wrote my phone is broken so you have to call me." That's like literally what I write in every text message these days. Uggggggghh. But I think I'm getting it tomorrow right after my mom comes from work so hopefully my I can take really really good care of my new phone (:

And... I'm really not looking forward to this week. finals. plus piano. wow piano's been such a pain. I kind of regret going for the whole competition system thing cause now I have to pay so much attention for it and I just don't have the time. The only thing I'm looking forward to this week is minimum day and friday. (: wooot


okay, well mi mama and I are about to go out and buy some cereal and pizza for dinner, so hopefully that will make me feel better about my phone and finals week (:

...

you've changed.

So...

I really don't want to sleep,
I really don't.
And coming to think about it, I'm really starting to dislike sundays.
It used to be my favorite day of the week, but all I remember about sundays are doing homework right when I wake up. Wow it is such a dread.

& Hence the reason why I'm still up. I would probably be sleeping right now haha (:

Well today was fun! It was kind of embarrasing cause I was late to chuch and the praise team started without me ): So I came in like during praise worship and the praise leader was like speaking on the mike saying "our pianist is a little late.." omg -___-. But it went well (:

And then we didn't have an afternoon activity so JEMMS decided to randomly go to my house and walk to the cow bus stop. It was really frustrating cause 1) It was SUPER hot, 2) We missed the last bus stop for route 2 so we had to cross the street for route 1, 3) Route 1 wasn't even the right route so we had to be on the bus for an hour. But it was still a pretty fun experience I guess. The bus lady kept on talking and talking but then in a way I kind of understood her because driving a bus without having anyone to talk to must be a boring job. And I guess she felt comfortable with us too cause she was showing us pictures in her cellphone. How random, but I'm glad at least we did at least something to her life (:

SO because of the 1 hour bus ride, we got to the mall around 5. THERE WERE SO MANY CUTE DRESSES! I seriously am not liking my mom for not letting me buy any. But since I'm going to the mall tomrrow again (ugh.) I guess i'll try to ask my dad (: haha. And we wanted to go eat guppies but we just wanted to stay near the mall so we went to panda express in the plaza place right across the mall. Then we went to jamba juice and we were thinking that we should do a scavenger hunt! So we made a list of like items to find and then we chose teams w/black and white and then we walked to target.

Man it was super fun! (: It was pretty awkks. and super random. and like people were definitely staring at us soo weird. I was paired up with michelle and we won! Woot (: But yeah, feels good to just fool around in the public cause i don't really open up to those kind of things.

First thing I noticed when I came home was that our sofa in the living room moved! Cause we're having a guest from Texas staying at our house for a week cause he's considering to move here with his family. I'm kind of worried about his daughter because I've been through that experience. Like when I lived in Missouri my dad went to California all of a sudden and then he told us that we were moving here. I hope she won't be too sad leaving Texas. And especially since I know her i'm pretty sure she's going to be devastated ): but that's life i guess.

Oh wow, I really really don't want to sleep. Uggh I seriously hate hate hate hate HATE school! All this homework... but hopefully mall tomorrow will cheer me up (:

headache

so i'm pretty much feeling a little queasy right now.
Why?

- i'm distracted, like always ):
- a super super hurting? cramp on the left side of my stomach
- a stuffy nose
- an essay to work on.

this. seriously. sucks.

Man, winter break was so fun I miss it so much! Like before break I used to say I hate school just because. But now I really really mean it.

But anyways,
Heffy Michelle Ashley came over my house after school and we watched high school musical 3 (: gaahd zac efron is such a ladies man. If I had a guy like that, who knows what I'll do (; haha. And then I thought... what if all girls had a bf like zac efron? Wow that would like lessen the violence girls have over boys. seriously. I think I love him<33333 haha. I think if a guy wants to get a girl they should go watch hsm3. I swear.

And then when they left I was being REALLY stupid wasting time trying to learn choreography in youtube. To Party People! Haha it was kind of fun (: I should master it. Winter formal is coming up so i need to loosen up my body loool. oh man -____-

Which reminds me! I NEED TO HURRY UP AND GET MY DRESS ): I'm really really hoping that the worst case scenario won't happen = no dresses my size. I just realized that it is super super important to go dress shopping early. And my hair KIND OF looks long to curl it, but i'm still deciding (: Hopefully i'll have my new dyed hair by then, which is most likely.

Okay i'm done, now i need to focus focus focus!

WOW I didn't write on my blog for like the LONGEST time :/ But alot has happened so I have alot to tell (: But I mean, winter break c'mon... haha.

Um okaay starting from snowboarding trip (:
So I left like last last Saturday and I was at Mammoth at a SUPER NICE condo place until tuesday I think? But yeah. it was pretty nice. I was kind of disappointed though at first cause last year we had like a WHOLE house to ourselves. And the house we had this year was pretty big but there was like 20 people living there so when we're all at the living room playing wii or something, it got pretty hot haha. Oh talking about the wii, I LOVE IT <3 style="font-weight: bold;">wasn't really funny. ): So I kind of quit after that. And then oh, around that time I heard that my brother's leg was damaged. Like half of his ligament on his leg got torn, so he had to go to the ER. Poor him, he only got to snowboard like two hours, and then wabam. He has to be on that cast for like 6 weeks I think. But lucky him, he doesn't have to do P.E. ): And then so on our way we returned our snowboards and got antibiotics for my brother and then just went back to our condo. And then pretty much the other days we were just playing wii and stuff.

Oh, and we tried to build an igloo! It was turning out really really good cause there was SO much snow, but then as we got to the bottom there was alot of ice so we went to another place to try building another one that would have less ice. But then we never got to finish it since we had to come in for lunch/dinner. Haha, I will never forget all the ramen and jjajjangmyun we ate that trip -_____- uggh. Seriously, like everyday. I think the only full meal I really ate was like breakfast hahah. OH! And it was kind of funny how like when we were going to go to bed, all the girls pulled out a book. WE ALL ACTUALLY BROUGHT A BOOK! haha. So we were pretty much reading, but then I only lasted for like 20 minutes. I think it was better not to read cause then I would have thought of school, so yeah (:

And so tuesday came ): And we had to leave. Haha it was really funny cause on our way back, I experienced the MOST painful emergency to go to the bathroom. Like it was sooo urgent and we had to drive like 200 more miles. The road was seriously deserted! And then paul kept on telling me that I should go out and #1, but then like NO WAY i'm going to do that. Even if it's an emergency. So pretty much for like the next 45 minutes I was just screaming and dying in the back of the car. Freaking, Kyle and Hyunchul kept on making fun of me -___- not funny. But when we stopped by subway, I seriously got out of the car and made sure I was the first person at the bathroom (: Wow. I will seriously never forget that. And I realized how important it is to go to the bathroom NO MATTER WHAT cause it will come back to you during the trip. Oh man.

So I spent Christmas at home... And I think we didn't really do anything. The next day, I had to go to Ashley's house at 9 in the morning for RETREAT! Woot. And so her cousins (eric & derrick) picked us up at McDonalds and then we were on our way to Temecula Calvary Church, where Ashley's other cousins (Brian & Darren) were. And I've seen them before so it was nice to see them again (: And oh, on our way we stopped by Wal-Mart. We did something that we shouldn't have done, but at retreat Ashley painted my nails so it felt good. (: And actually that was the first time I EVER painted my nails, and ever since that I've been wanting to buy all freaking colors I can possibly get. -___-

I can't really say anything about retreat, expect that we woke up really early all the time and that every break possible I pretty much slept. And that one time I couldn't eat lunch or dinner because they both had meat, and no other vegetarian options ): I was especially sad when we had cereal for breakfast but I couldn't eat it cause they didn't have soymilk. Oh man. But it was a blessing and I was really glad to be up there, since I didn't really know where I was at in life and things. Haha, go All Stars (:

I came back on Monday and then the next day, I rested the whole time (: Wow it felt really good since it wasn't so cold and that there was no snow. I've never been sick of snow this much before -__- even when i used to live at a place where there always was snow. And on Wednesday, I had my piano lesson and since my mom took a break that day, I got to spent time with her and my family.
It was freaking New Years Eve Already! Wow I have had so much fun that time flew by so fast, and next thing you know, it's the end of the year... Luckily Meena came over to company me into 2009 (: We counted down and celebrated for like 30 seconds and went back to watching shows and stuff. It was pretty sad, but honestly I'm not that excited for this year. Time goes by so fast these days that I feel like it's just going to pass by so fast. But like I said, I was glad that I at least had someone (: Cause my parents were at our next door neighbor's house just talking and stuff, so yeah.

And then oh! During retreat I think I caught the stomach flu. Wow, it was seriously like the worst experience ever. I'm glad that I got over with it before school starts, but I really hope that I will never experience it again. Seriously.


Saturday at church, we took our yearly church photos as usual, and then during lunch we picked new officers. Haha I was elected secretary! Woot. And then after that the girls and I had to go to a SALT meeting so we had it until like 6. Literally. Cause like my mom couldn't find her way there. It was pretty painful, but then Meena was at my house again! Cause we were celebrating her mom's birthday at my house. The cake was sooooo good. And Meena and I were watching
"Family Outing" in my room so it was pretty fun.

Wow ): It's the last day of break already. Time seems like it went by steady but now as i think about it, this was like one of the breaks I had alot of fun and I will surely miss it. I'm not really looking foward to this year, since I'm going to be a Junior by the end :/ But I just hope that Sophmore year will really go well and that I will have a fun time (: I think that's seriously my only new year's resolutions. haha.



(: Happy New Years~